The other day I weighed myself which lead me to my breakdown. I never weigh myself because I feel like I don't look my weight and also because I spend hours focusing on a number. I have been working out and eating so healthy here while also treating myself but still gained weight. I didn't realize it until I stepped on the scale. Regardless, I lift a lot and have lots of muscle but I still have fat. That fat makes me feel like "less of women" and "not good enough". But I am good enough, and so are you.
Weight doesn't dictate if you are healthy or not. I work out, eat healthily, fuel my body, etc., and yet I still weigh a lot. It doesn't add up. I spend hours on the internet looking up women with my height and weight and see people I don't look like but when I see that, I automatically think that is what I look like. I work so hard to be healthy and my body is healthy and perfect the way it is but I don't always see that. My weight has always been such a struggle for me because of puberty and birth control. I gained weight because of both of them and now I am deciding to change. I am changing to feel better about myself and just feel skinnier. I don't know if that is healthy or not but I am making sure I listen to my body and eat when I am hungry but ONLY if I am hungry. I'm cutting out sodas, choosing wheat instead of white, lower calories snacks, etc. But for the calorie part, I am not counting again. That is the easiest way to lose weight but it made me miserable. I would also test myself to see how little I could eat and I never enjoyed food. Now that I don't count, I enjoy food but also don't stress if I eat too many calories one day. Counting works for some but not all, ALWAYS REMEMBER NOT EVERYONE CAN USE THE SAME DIET OR DIET TECHINQUES.
Do you wrap this up I really just want to say that weight is such an easy thing to get hung up on but doesn't matter. I weigh a lot but that does not mean I'm not healthy. I am very strong, I am healthy, and I work hard for what my body is in so do you. Losing weight for me is always hard because I always do it for the wrong reasons but I feel like doing it to feel skinnier and just healthier is not terrible. But I am doing it for myself to feel more confident, no one else, which I feel like is good.
Sorry today was more of a rant and me using this platform as a way to help myself but I hope you found something in this.
Love ya!
KC
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